“Te horse is made ready for the day of battle but the victory belongs to the Lord.” Proverbs 21:31
“Te horse is made ready for the day of battle but the victory belongs to the Lord.” Proverbs 21:31
The new hope he gives me every morning is truly amazing.
“Weeping may tarry for the night,
but joy comes with the morning.” Psalm 30:6
“When the Lord your God brings you into the land he swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, to give you—a land with large, flourishing cities you did not build, 11 houses filled with all kinds of good things you did not provide, wells you did not dig, and vineyards and olive groves you did not plant—then when you eat and are satisfied, 12 be careful that you do not forget the Lord, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.“ Deuteronomy 6:10-12
“I am the LORD your God, who brought you up out of Egypt. Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.“ Psalm 81:10
Faith & Endurance
Purification of all other desires
I will love you, still
I love you, only
You are the only one I love, Jesus
Praise be to your name – always, forever, in every season.
What I love about the library:
I always took libraries for granted while I was in school, but I have rediscovered a love for libraries @ my local San Jose public library.
1. Nobody ever comes here hahaha except old people and children (and I like them)
2. It is silent, unlike coffee shops
3. I can nap here and no one will judge me
4. I can stay here for 8+ hours and no one will judge me
5. The chairs and desks are more ergonomic and conducive to studying
6. I have plenty of space to lay all of my stuff down
7. Librarians are so nice
Thankful : )
“But as for me, I am poor and needy; may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; you are my God, do not delay.” Psalm 40:17
The joy & delight of being poor and needy…
(Joy)
Honestly, I can’t believe the season I am going through right now. The first 3 years of my teaching career were really, really tough. I couldn’t see the end of the tunnel. I remembering crying every morning in the dark because I didn’t want to go to school. I remember trying to sing along to “Worth It All” by Rita Springer, but getting just ending up bawling. I remember feeling suffocated with no way out.
But oh Lord, my Lord—He is so good. He is a good God. He has put my feet on solid ground. He taught me to walk with Him through each of those moments. He taught me to rise over stress and fear because He is for me and with me. He taught me to exult in Him as He delights in me. He taught me to love His children, each one that he places in front of me.
This season of fruitfulness—of being so confident and joyful in the path that the Lord has set before me—I do not take for granted. Thank you Lord Jesus. Help me to cling ever so close to you still.
“But as for me, I am poor and needy; may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; you are my God, do not delay.” Psalm 40:17
What is Thy only comfort in life and death?
That I with body and soul, both in life and death, am not my own, but belong unto my faithful Savior Jesus Christ; who, with his precious blood, hath fully satisfied for all my sins, and delivered me from all the power of the devil; and so preserves me that without the will of my heavenly Father, not a hair can fall from my head; yea, that all things must be subservient to my salvation, and therefore, by his Holy Spirit, he also assures me of eternal life, and makes me sincerely willing and ready, henceforth, to live unto him.
When I feel shitty and I don’t want to go on, Galatians 2:20 gives me life.
And this song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vs3UFC85kzw
Thoughts 9/26-9/27
I’m so thankful to be a teacher. What other job would allow me to blast praise songs really loudly for an hour in my own personal workspace before work starts? What other job would allow me to pray and depend on God all throughout the day? What other job would allow me to be so exhausted and physically drained and aching and desperate for God at the end of each day? (Probably a couple other jobs for this one—but still.)
Re: tiredness. Yesterday, I was running on 4 hours of sleep for a 14-hour workday. Then we committed to having Tuesday night prayer, so I went straight to prayer after work. I thought I wouldn’t be able to pray because I was so tired, but there was no sweeter time of prayer. There is no better time to pray than when you’ve reached the end of yourself. It really reminded me of how wonderful it is to go to bed each day knowing that you’ve lived a full day before God. I want to be able to live that life everyday. I don’t want to be a slave to my comfort; help me to love you more.
Re: teaching. I love teaching. I love the kids. I love building relationships. Last night at BTSN, a couple of my troublemakers’ parents came and told me that they said I was their favorite teacher (Ty, Ed, & Kev). I said “Really??? I’m always telling them to be quiet—so I’m glad they still like me.” It was a joke, but really. Things are different this year. Lord, help me to keep my mind stayed on you, so that I can walk with you in everything I do this year. May my classroom be filled with love and power and joy as you have promised.
God is so good. I can’t believe he loved me first… and that he still loves me. The beauty of your cross is something I never want to graduate from. I love you God.